That’s quite a mouthful, isn’t it?! Let’s just say I was searching for truth and I’m so glad I found it! I should say, Found HIM! JESUS – The way, the truth and the life! And what a GREAT life I’ve had in Him!
Over 30 years ago after saying, “Yes,” to Jesus, I began falling madly in love with God. Before I knew it, I started loving what He loves and doing what He does. It didn’t take long to realize what God loves more than anything else in this world… PEOPLE! So it stands to reason He was calling me to love them too! To be His vessel - His hands, His feet, and His mouthpiece to demonstrate His mercy and love to a world that desperately needs Him.
Even though my heart was all for it, truth be told, my mind, body and emotions wanted to run fast in the other direction! While I've always felt called to evangelize, honestly, it was a struggle right off the bat. My spirit was willing, but my flesh was weak! I would come up with every excuse NOT to do it! 😳 Perhaps you can relate? Frankly, I didn’t even know if sharing my faith would be possible.
For years I was frustrated knowing I was supposed to do something, but wasn't doing it. I hated that. The problem was deeper than I realized. Not only was I disobeying God, I was disappointing my Father and I couldn’t live with that. So finally one day I said, “THAT’S IT!!!” I made a vow to God and told Him I would do whatever He wanted me to do. From that day forward, my life completely changed! I had an ah-ha moment (a revelation as many would call it) that revolutionized my entire walk with God!
But even though I was fully committed, I still wasn’t sure how to go about this. There had to be a way to keep fear at bay and I knew God would show me. So I began fervently studying His Word - digesting so many teachings that helped me overcome fear and go forth boldly. As a result, God showed me (through a number of experiences and opportunities) how to SMEAR THE FEAR that kept me back from telling others about Jesus. Hallelujah!
First, I engaged in more prayer and that certainly made a big difference in my approach. And then, as I began to truly tap into God’s supernatural power….guess what? It seemed to work EVERY TIME. Following these nudges (a.k.a hearing from God) made ALL the difference! And I want to make sure you know how this all works!
I finally realized that my problems weren’t all my fault! It boiled down to lies I was believing... causing these deep rooted fears to control me...and THAT'S WHY I wasn’t able to properly share my faith. No wonder I was struggling!